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Itch Ecstasy

by Homeskin

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1.
The cold winter months are when spider nests are at their peak. So it's no surprise that one unlucky woman found a spider nest in her ear during this season. The only silver lining is that the spiders provided her with warmth and protection from the cold weather. Secret secrete. Crawl repeat. Fused cobwebs and earwax, a harmony vestigial. Make your way into the brain. Lay the eggs and watch me squirm. I’m you.
2.
Pulling up to the hotel in the bright and hot afternoon. We see dilapidation in the west wing. Venture inside for awhile, for the exploration. The doors are broken off. The air is rife with mildew, aromatic caress in excess. Hold the camera up, point and hold steady. Shoot thousands of words in a second. See a man and a present. Step into the sunlit corridor from the broken stairs. In the tub it lay a jacket most filthy. It must have been there quite a while. Forgotten and left behind. The owner must have moved on. Without a second thought and now it lay here all alone. A sad and sorry sight, but also a glory to any new eyes. Step closer and hold it in the light and you’ll see that it’s skin laminate. Smiles all around.
3.
Every day the same itch calls. Every day the crumbs fall. From tooth to nail to hairs entangled. Under the persimmon tree the little body jumps up and down, grabbing the branch to see if one falls. Every day the same itch calls. Every day the crumbs fall. Reasonable need. Unreasonable methods. Cream on the finger goes unwasted with no sugar to linger. The digging goes deeper and deeper and you finally see a spot of blood and something that looks like ginger.
4.
The door is closed, the darkness enveloping me. I am safe in here, away from the world. Tending to my wound, I try not to make a sound. The pain is sharp, but I'm used to it by now. I've been hiding in here for days, afraid to face the outside. But eventually I must leave this safety of mine. I just can't help but whimper and moan. There’s pain but there’s also pleasure. My mind races with questions and concerns. What if this gets infected? What if I can't stop the bleeding? What if I die in here alone? Who will let my manager know?
5.
A failed experiment, a tone of worry. Yellow film formulating on skin, a dizzying sight to behold.What went wrong, what could have been done differently? Now there's only regret and a feeling of failure. The experiment is over, but the consequences could last for years. Can’t stop the scratching. Can’t stop the eruption. Tried to notify an expert but I was met with silence. Was it a dismissal or a cause for concern but there’s nothing that can be feasibly done? I then caught a glimpse of my own heaven with all my skin off and no fingernails. Could have sworn I saw a woman with a spider or two crawling out of her ear. Rest assured I wasn’t dreaming. I don’t sleep, and I don’t dream. I just scratch the itches until I scream and scream. Turn off the camera.
6.
Need the sun to soothe my soul so I can feel whole again. Open the curtain and see the brown grass unkept again. Torrential rocks met with laughter by the children across the street with no friends. Sibling co-dependency deserving to seek more than the house that sits away from the bright heat. I can't take it anymore, every touch sets my skin on fire. I have to get out of this house, and into the open air. The sun will soothe my aching flesh, and the wind will cool my burning blood. This is the only way I'll survive, until this house is gone for good. I told a story differently 30 or so times and you still couldn’t hear. I kept the light on for the fourth night in a row hoping someone would sit here. Then one night someone did. A shadow of my former self in the lamp’s spotlight. Slowly radiating into something human and in pure ecstasy. Repurposing old dead skin into something new and invigorating. We share a drink of water, creamy and bittersweet. The bugs find their way in and crawl over our trail of sheddings and up our legs to feed. Yours, sweeter. Mine, burning.

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EU Tape edition will be released on ruego.bandcamp.com.

All songs written & recorded between September 22 - 26, 2022.

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released October 4, 2022

GB - All Instruments & Vocals

Cover Art:
Derek Setzer (dereksetzer.com)

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Homeskin Texas

A daytime counterpart to Gonemage set in reality instead of dream realms.

RIP. November 2021 - February 2023.

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